Two days ago, I forgot to pay my internet bill and for one moment, I was thankful I was so negligent of due dates. Hey, I’ve got to read books again. I realized being online almost 24/7 has forbid me to do the things I used to be so fond of. I wasted so many hours playing Candy Crush and adventure games on my phone, watching nonsense vlogs (although not all because I also watch home interior designing/ house renovation videos), and casually liking photoshopped photos on instagram by bloggers who appear to be perfect human beings and are living your dream life. Seriously, I should stop this social media addiction and actually start being productive. Can we count reading as productive, please?
I woke up at the crack of dawn on Tuesday and couldn’t get back to sleep. So I tried to play games on my phone to tire my eyes out only to keep me up all morning. I don’t really need to intake caffein to stay up for long hours. I pulled out my book and continued reading ‘The Wedding Diaries’ by Sam Binnie. It was hilarious and a little stressful but a good read. Rolled out of bed at 8. Prepared milk and instant carbonara just enough to stop the growling of my stomach. I was past half way through finishing the book when I suddenly felt sleepy at 10ish. I slept and woke up at almost 4pm. Oh God, please tell me I’m not going to die soon.
I had scrambled eggs for a very late lunch (almost dinner) and a cold rice. I was done with the book. Slightly impressed to myself, I read another one. This time it’s ‘I Heart New Yolk’ by Lindsey Kelk. It was so moving. I could just imagine myself being in NYC and staying there for good. Just like what Anglea Clark from the book did. Also, I desperately want a job like hers. Blogging about her NY adventures, dating hot guys (okay maybe I’m fine without men but if they’ve got black Amex and bring you to Tiffany’s, I’ll reconsider), and actually living her life. Isn’t that what we all wanted? I finished the book by lunch time yesterday and now I’m on my third. I’m half way through it and I just started this evening. There’s something about it that makes me read faster than ever and couldn’t wait to flip onto another page. Then I get sad when it’s over. It’s like watching a really, really good movie that you don’t want to end, but at the same time you badly want to hit the fast forward button to see how it really ends.
Oh God, I forgot how it feels good to finally get back into my reading habit. What have I been doing with my life lately? About five years ago, I could win an award for being the laziest, most boring, person in the world (or maybe just in our city or house). Actually, I still am. But I do get up every 8 years to go into the kitchen, get something to eat in the most inappropriate time. Who really said I could only eat on specific hours? Read again: please tell me I’m not going to die soon.
Five more days and I’ll be gone in here. I’m going to finally get some life. Please wish me the best of luck for whatever I’m gonna do in the next few days. I might also want to bring my series of ‘The Selection’ books to my trip. I’m on its third book and I never got to finish it since 2015. AJ bought me the set for only God knows how much. I have three other new books, still very sealed, also bought by him. I should read them all before he regrets buying me things I never even use. Then he regrets getting into a relationship where he has an ungrateful girlfriend. Then he breaks up with me. Then I write a book about it. Then I get famous and unhappy because I’m single, but also happy my dream has come true. Writing a book, not being single.
The past few days have been so rainy. If not, gloomy. Since AJ went back to MNL on the 7th, I never went somewhere far than my aunt’s house beside ours. Not even so sure whether I should pay my bill tomorrow to have my internet back again or wait until I finish this current book I’m into. Instagram and YouTube are such distractions. Should I uninstall them? Maybe sometime.
Ahhh! Feels good to be back blogging. It’s quite a long time. I have so much to talk about and so many photos to be uploaded, mostly from my tricity trip recently. There’s not that much going on in my life lately, but I still wanna share a thing or two.
It’s been two weeks since I got back in the Philippines. I’ve been all over Thailand, Singapore, and Malaysia for 8 days and now I’m broke as f. But whatevs, I enjoyed my vacation. After all, it’s the memories that count, right? I was supposed to relax upon coming back home because I was so tired from all the airport hassle. I slept most of the time during our flight.
Anyway, as soon as I stepped inside our house, I was bombarded with paper works. Imagine my exhaustion from traveling. My energy level was at negative.
Okay, exhale. I should have warned you on my intro that this is a stressful blog.
The next morning I woke up I had to run so many errands. I haven’t really got a good rest yet. Plus, there was an ongoing renovation in our house. I had to lend a helping hand.
How crazy is this month? A week before my flight I had a short vacay in Negros and when we got back in Cebu I went to see a doctor for a checkup ‘cause my whole body was covered with rashes. I don’t know what was that but I freaked out. It was only a few days away from my trip. The doctor told me I had a possible dengue attack (again). If you know me very well, I hate doctor appointments and hospitals. But when I saw my rashes getting worse, I rushed to the nearest clinic. Thank God I was healed just a day before my flight. I don’t think that was dengue. I was fine after a few days without even taking the other medicines prescribed. And speaking of meds, I am allergic to almost all tablets and capsules. I’m lucky I don’t get sick easily or else I’d die sooner lol.
I talk about so many random things today. I take back what I said earlier that there’s not that much going on in my life lately. I realized that there’s so much happening actually.
Later, my best friends are coming over in our house for a videoke session and maybe a sleepover, too. I badly need to unwind and get myself a good massage. Now I miss the best massage I had in Thailand. I probably will write a separate blog about my tricity trip. Hopefully I can post it before the year ends.
Can’t believe we have a month left for 2018. How’s your year going so far?
How I don’t like rainy season when I used to go to work. But now that I’m just home almost everyday, I’m enjoying the cold weather minus the flood. It makes bingewatching movies more chill. Currently, I’m obsessed with this series on Netflix. Most of the time, I’m into series than a two-hour long movie. I actually rewatched How I Met Your Mother but then AJ has been forcing me to watch Brooklyn 99, so I went for it. He got me at “the humor is the same as Friends” and you know how I looove Friends over any other series/movies.
Anyway, this Brooklyn 99 is about detectives, quite interesting and hilarious. Sometimes I wish I’m one of them. lol.
I’m a little bored with my jobless life so I think I’m going back to the corporate world by September. Also, next week I’m flying to Manila for a long vacation. I have no fixed plans on where to go but I have listed down a couple places to maybe visit while I’m there. I’m going to meet my old friends and relatives, too.
On September, we’re going to Negros for a quick vacation. Then, I have international travels on October to November. I should get a job if I travel this much. December will always be for family since it’s Christmas season. I can’t believe ber month is fast approaching. It seemed like I just bought a 2018 planner and I haven’t even filled out half of it.
Last night, I made some crafty stuff because I couldn’t sleep. I’ll post it on my IG stories tonight. I have too many things to get done but I’m all chill. I have wasted so many unproductive days and didn’t even feel bad for being lazy lately. I just need to relax and unwind before I get all crazy with work again.
8 more days to go and I’ll be reunited with my love once again. I’ll be in Manila for 9 days, just for a little vacation and work. We’re planning to go to Baguio or Tagaytay next weekend maybe. Our original plan was actually a staycation at Tagaytay, but then the place that I wanted to rent is already fully booked. So I suggested going to Baguio instead, though it’s quite far. I have been there twice already, so I’ll show him around.
Today, I woke up a little late, but slept early last night. Tomorrow’s plan is to have dinner with my officemates. I don’t know if we will push through. If we don’t, I’m going to Ayala Cinema and watch Siargao all over again. That is if the mall is open tomorrow, but probably they’re still closed. Sadly, there was a fire incident there last January 5. The whole Metro which is inside Ayala Mall is now burnt. I was actually there when it happened. We were inside the cinema. The movie has just started when a guard came up with a megaphone, requesting all of us to evacuate. We stood up from our seats right away and went to the exit. I thought it was a bomb threat again. We asked the security guards what happened but no one answered us so we did not panic. But when we saw the people running to our way from Metro, we knew something was wrong. The fire started at the floor level with cinema. It broke my heart when I found out about it. Ayala is the closest mall to my heart. It took more than two days to declare that the fire was under control. I salute to all of those firefighters and people who sacrificed their sleep just to make sure no one was harmed during the operation.
This weekend, I think I’m gonna do the laundry again. Why does this seem so endless? I have also already packed up for my flight next week. I’m almost ready to go.
So today is the middle of the week and I am surprisingly productive. Last night, I slept earlier than usual and I woke up at 6 in the morning. Usually, I don’t get up on bed right away. Most of the time, I fall back asleep. But this morning, I felt like my life changed overnight. I’ve been trying so hard since the start of the year to achieve my goal of getting my normal life back. I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this for the nth time already in my blog posts. Seriously, whenever I read articles about unhealthy living, I could always relate to the topic. Top of the list is the lack of sleep. Recently, my officemates and I have been slowly practicing leaving the office before 11pm. It’s amazing how 2018 has changed us. I guess we have all finally realized that we’re not getting any younger, and that health is truly a wealth.
Also, I used to have nightmares and weird dreams. I would wake up catching my breath and worrying about random things. They told me it was because of my stress from work. But thankfully lately, I fall asleep relaxed and wake up calm. Anyway, going back to what made me productive today. I opened my work laptop at 7 in the morning and started working (please be proud of me, haven’t done this in a looong time). I also had eaten breakfast again after how many months and drank a glass of milk. I didn’t finish my meal though because I don’t usually eat that much on mornings. At 9 am, I did my laundry while working at the same time. Sun-dried the clothes at around 1 in the afternoon and had my lunch. Wow! I wanted to congratulate myself. Now, I’m yawning every 30 seconds. I gotta hit the sack early. Tomorrow’s gonna be a great day, hopefully!
Oh, I forgot to mention. I had my early morning devotion. I’m sharing you today’s Bible verse.
“Learn to be patient, so that you will please God and be given what he has promised.” – Hebrews 10:36
So it’s Friday, huh. I just shut down my laptop. Yes, I worked until this late ‘cause I was gone from work for a couple of hours and I had to compensate the time I used for dinner and watching Spiderman. I was so sleepy in the office. I knew I needed a long breaktime to regain my energy. I ate so much beef last night. I was craving for shrimps but we couldn’t make it to the movies if AJ let me decide where to eat because shrimps, duuh. I couldn’t stop eating them. And I always pretend I’m never allergic to it. Meanwhile, here I am suffering from itchiness every night for eating all the taboo foods for me.
Anyways, I started watching that KDrama, Strong Woman. AJ’s sister has been forcing me to watch. Lol. I have no copy of the full series yet so I’ve been searching videos of it all over Facebook. I am not really fond of Korean movies, but I’ve watched a few. Now I’m replaying Friends all over again. I don’t know. Never gets old. Their humor amuses me. I’d still laugh at their witty jokes. Most of the time, at their faces. Phoebe is my favorite, and also Ross. Well, I love all the six of them. Sometimes, I’m just biased.
Supposedly, I was looking for HIMYM (How I Met Your Mother), but the HOOQ app doesn’t have it yet. Lately, I’ve been crazy ’bout Netflix, too. So many movies. I sometimes spend a movie marathon with myself.
Yeah, I should sleep now. I’m attending an event tomorrow. Good luck, self!
Could someone please suggest anything I can do to help me sleep early? Like at least one AM. I couldn’t stop working and it’s already three at dawn. I have no feeling of drowsiness at all. In fact, I could stay up until the sun rises. I should receive an extra pay for working on a graveyard shift. I drank milk earlier weirdly paired with pancit canton. Also, puto and hard boiled egg. What’s the English word for puto? I don’t bother to know, duuh. I went outside together with my mama. I’m always hungry after midnight. Guess it’s not supposed to be called midnight snack anymore.
I keep on yawning. But when I try to close my eyes, it would take me almost an hour to get knocked out. I’m crying, I want to go back to my old self where five minutes is too long to make me fall asleep. I couldn’t remember the last time I had a real breakfast before lunch time. Help me. This isn’t healthy.
I just had a call with my lead and it was the one of the talks I needed to have in this time of my life. I tell you, my work is killing me. Imagine me dealing with so much technical stuff going on and I am an HRM graduate. Sometimes I think it was a little mishap on choosing an IT job than pursuing the degree I hold. But I did not regret my choice. However, I am struggling with my work right now and as what I have said on my FB status last night, I am in between giving up and seeing how more I can take. I don’t know if she (my lead) has read my posts both in FB and my blog on how stressed I am at work, or my teammates told her I sleep at past four AM everyday. But honey, she just said the right words I needed to hear during our one hour call. I almost cried of gratefulness on how much she understands how I feel. I never thought she’d even care about my personal life. She’s way too busy to be bothered ‘bout non-work related things. I am just so happy she spared a little time for me in spite of her hectic schedule. Her comforting words somehow relieved the pressure and stress stuck in me for so long. Nah, just kidding. Just a few weeks maybe.
I almost lose my motivation to work, afraid I cannot deliver what is expected from me. But there is something that pushes me to go on. I don’t know what is it. I look forward to finding it out. Last year, I came to point where I wanted to look for another job – the one which I love to do. But then again, I didn’t push through for some personal reasons. Reasons only God truly understands. No sugarcoating, but I didn’t have a good relationship with my previous team. I’m glad I was transferred to another project. The workload is so much more a pain in the ass, but the people around me made it lighter. Well, not easy to accomplish the task, but at least I have a team whom I can run into when my brain capacity drops to zero percent. So long as I need an income, which I think will be forever, kakapit ako besh.
It’s almost three in the morning and I’m still wide awake. I want to believe it’s the Panna Cotta I ate at late afternoon today that’s keeping me up or the Oaties milk. But sadly, no. Lately, I’ve been sleeping so late. My body clock has gone crazy. It started when I watched Netflix movies on my phone. I couldn’t stop browsing for another movie once I finished one. Also, I’ve been too busy with work. Last week, I got home at almost 3 AM. You see, I am not a morning person. I get so productive at night, because I like working on quiet hours. It doesn’t make me feel sleepy at all. How ironic am I of a normal person?
Oh, the rain has just stopped pouring. I really want to sleep now. I have to take a call tomorrow at ten in the morning. Well, good thing, I can work from home anytime I want. So, I’ll just come by to the office maybe after lunch. I am trying to wake up early like I used to, but my alarm doesn’t work. Or maybe I just ignore it every time it rings and swipe snooze about ten times. Lol.
Now, I’m having allergies all over my right leg. I blame it to the chicken I had for lunch. This is seriously itchy. It looks gross, full of my scratches. Hope the marks will be gone when I wake up. Also, my eyes are so puffy. I can pass as a brokenhearted teenage girl who cried overnight. I need the most powerful concealer. My eyeglasses couldn’t cover these up.