“I can and I will. Watch me.”
That’s what she told herself. Then, a miracle happened almost overnight.
Two days ago, I forgot to pay my internet bill and for one moment, I was thankful I was so negligent of due dates. Hey, I’ve got to read books again. I realized being online almost 24/7 has forbid me to do the things I used to be so fond of. I wasted so many hours playing Candy Crush and adventure games on my phone, watching nonsense vlogs (although not all because I also watch home interior designing/ house renovation videos), and casually liking photoshopped photos on instagram by bloggers who appear to be perfect human beings and are living your dream life. Seriously, I should stop this social media addiction and actually start being productive. Can we count reading as productive, please?
I woke up at the crack of dawn on Tuesday and couldn’t get back to sleep. So I tried to play games on my phone to tire my eyes out only to keep me up all morning. I don’t really need to intake caffein to stay up for long hours. I pulled out my book and continued reading ‘The Wedding Diaries’ by Sam Binnie. It was hilarious and a little stressful but a good read. Rolled out of bed at 8. Prepared milk and instant carbonara just enough to stop the growling of my stomach. I was past half way through finishing the book when I suddenly felt sleepy at 10ish. I slept and woke up at almost 4pm. Oh God, please tell me I’m not going to die soon.
I had scrambled eggs for a very late lunch (almost dinner) and a cold rice. I was done with the book. Slightly impressed to myself, I read another one. This time it’s ‘I Heart New Yolk’ by Lindsey Kelk. It was so moving. I could just imagine myself being in NYC and staying there for good. Just like what Anglea Clark from the book did. Also, I desperately want a job like hers. Blogging about her NY adventures, dating hot guys (okay maybe I’m fine without men but if they’ve got black Amex and bring you to Tiffany’s, I’ll reconsider), and actually living her life. Isn’t that what we all wanted? I finished the book by lunch time yesterday and now I’m on my third. I’m half way through it and I just started this evening. There’s something about it that makes me read faster than ever and couldn’t wait to flip onto another page. Then I get sad when it’s over. It’s like watching a really, really good movie that you don’t want to end, but at the same time you badly want to hit the fast forward button to see how it really ends.
Oh God, I forgot how it feels good to finally get back into my reading habit. What have I been doing with my life lately? About five years ago, I could win an award for being the laziest, most boring, person in the world (or maybe just in our city or house). Actually, I still am. But I do get up every 8 years to go into the kitchen, get something to eat in the most inappropriate time. Who really said I could only eat on specific hours? Read again: please tell me I’m not going to die soon.
Five more days and I’ll be gone in here. I’m going to finally get some life. Please wish me the best of luck for whatever I’m gonna do in the next few days. I might also want to bring my series of ‘The Selection’ books to my trip. I’m on its third book and I never got to finish it since 2015. AJ bought me the set for only God knows how much. I have three other new books, still very sealed, also bought by him. I should read them all before he regrets buying me things I never even use. Then he regrets getting into a relationship where he has an ungrateful girlfriend. Then he breaks up with me. Then I write a book about it. Then I get famous and unhappy because I’m single, but also happy my dream has come true. Writing a book, not being single.
The past few days have been so rainy. If not, gloomy. Since AJ went back to MNL on the 7th, I never went somewhere far than my aunt’s house beside ours. Not even so sure whether I should pay my bill tomorrow to have my internet back again or wait until I finish this current book I’m into. Instagram and YouTube are such distractions. Should I uninstall them? Maybe sometime.
2019 has come! In four months time, I’m turning a year older. It kinda makes me sad because I feel like I haven’t achieved something significant yet, but at the same time, I’m also thankful to the Lord for adding up another year in my life.
It’s past 2am and here I am, blogging. Actually, I just had my dinner. I know it’s not good but I wasn’t hungry earlier because of the milk tea I have intaken this afternoon. I had a date with AJ before he flies back to Manila later this morning. We’re back to LDR again, but I’m gonna see him soon. I am very happy he stayed in Cebu for almost 3 weeks. I wanted to accompany him going to the airport later but his flight is too early. He has to leave by dawn.
Anyhoodle, I would like to share some of my 2018 highlights.
January. Started my year by traveling to Manila for work and a little vacation.
February. Finally got to tick Bantayan Island off my bucket list. Celebrated Valentine’s Day the LDR way. Got to play badminton again after so many years.
March. Spent quality time with my former teammates. Not much happening this month though.
April. My birth month. The boyfriend tried to surprise me. Well, it was such a fail because his sister told me he’s coming home. She didn’t know it was supposed to be a surprise. Also, I was confined in the hospital for being so overfatigued and I fainted in one of the malls in Cebu. Yep, that was very unforgettable. Please don’t remind me about it in the future.
May. I had my first international travel with AJ’s family to Singapore. Celebrated his birthday in another country.
June. After 4 years and 2 months, I resigned from my first job. The day after my last day of work, I brought mama to Manila for the first time. She enjoyed so much that she didn’t want to go back to Cebu, lol. This was also the month I started my online business of selling clothes.
July. One of my bestfriends invited me for book shopping when Big Bad Wolf came to Cebu. Attended my college classmate’s wedding and was one of the bridesmaids.
August. I flew to Manila for the third time this year. Stayed there for almost a month. I went to the gym for the first (and last) time with AJ’s officemate who turned out to be my friend instantly. I was about to look for a job there when my family had an emergency and I was the only rescue, so I had to fly back home immediately. Started a new job at a construction site as my father’s secretary/assistant.
September. Celebrated our third anniversary. AJ’s second attempt to surprise me. This time it was a total success.
October. Quick vacation to Negros for my cousin’s wedding and had to rush myself into the doctor’s clinic because of the unusual rashes appearing all over my body. Glad I’m still alive until now. Flew to Malaysia on the last day of the month.
November. Tricity trip (Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand) with my former colleagues. Spent Christmas a little way too early with my girl friends. We renovated some part of our house, including my room.
December. Went to Sirao Flower Farm with my relatives. Shopped for gifts. Dinner with some of my closest friends from work back then. Spent the actual Christmas lying on bed all day.
That’s it. I guess to basically sum up my 2018, it was more on travels and quality time with my family and friends. Whatever it went, I am beyond grateful I survived the year despite my shortcomings. This 2019, I am claiming it’s my year. Well, seems like everybody wishes the same. May the odds be ever in our favor, folks.
Ahhh! Feels good to be back blogging. It’s quite a long time. I have so much to talk about and so many photos to be uploaded, mostly from my tricity trip recently. There’s not that much going on in my life lately, but I still wanna share a thing or two.
It’s been two weeks since I got back in the Philippines. I’ve been all over Thailand, Singapore, and Malaysia for 8 days and now I’m broke as f. But whatevs, I enjoyed my vacation. After all, it’s the memories that count, right? I was supposed to relax upon coming back home because I was so tired from all the airport hassle. I slept most of the time during our flight.
Anyway, as soon as I stepped inside our house, I was bombarded with paper works. Imagine my exhaustion from traveling. My energy level was at negative.
Okay, exhale. I should have warned you on my intro that this is a stressful blog.
The next morning I woke up I had to run so many errands. I haven’t really got a good rest yet. Plus, there was an ongoing renovation in our house. I had to lend a helping hand.
How crazy is this month? A week before my flight I had a short vacay in Negros and when we got back in Cebu I went to see a doctor for a checkup ‘cause my whole body was covered with rashes. I don’t know what was that but I freaked out. It was only a few days away from my trip. The doctor told me I had a possible dengue attack (again). If you know me very well, I hate doctor appointments and hospitals. But when I saw my rashes getting worse, I rushed to the nearest clinic. Thank God I was healed just a day before my flight. I don’t think that was dengue. I was fine after a few days without even taking the other medicines prescribed. And speaking of meds, I am allergic to almost all tablets and capsules. I’m lucky I don’t get sick easily or else I’d die sooner lol.
I talk about so many random things today. I take back what I said earlier that there’s not that much going on in my life lately. I realized that there’s so much happening actually.
Later, my best friends are coming over in our house for a videoke session and maybe a sleepover, too. I badly need to unwind and get myself a good massage. Now I miss the best massage I had in Thailand. I probably will write a separate blog about my tricity trip. Hopefully I can post it before the year ends.
Can’t believe we have a month left for 2018. How’s your year going so far?
How I don’t like rainy season when I used to go to work. But now that I’m just home almost everyday, I’m enjoying the cold weather minus the flood. It makes bingewatching movies more chill. Currently, I’m obsessed with this series on Netflix. Most of the time, I’m into series than a two-hour long movie. I actually rewatched How I Met Your Mother but then AJ has been forcing me to watch Brooklyn 99, so I went for it. He got me at “the humor is the same as Friends” and you know how I looove Friends over any other series/movies.
Anyway, this Brooklyn 99 is about detectives, quite interesting and hilarious. Sometimes I wish I’m one of them. lol.
I’m a little bored with my jobless life so I think I’m going back to the corporate world by September. Also, next week I’m flying to Manila for a long vacation. I have no fixed plans on where to go but I have listed down a couple places to maybe visit while I’m there. I’m going to meet my old friends and relatives, too.
On September, we’re going to Negros for a quick vacation. Then, I have international travels on October to November. I should get a job if I travel this much. December will always be for family since it’s Christmas season. I can’t believe ber month is fast approaching. It seemed like I just bought a 2018 planner and I haven’t even filled out half of it.
Last night, I made some crafty stuff because I couldn’t sleep. I’ll post it on my IG stories tonight. I have too many things to get done but I’m all chill. I have wasted so many unproductive days and didn’t even feel bad for being lazy lately. I just need to relax and unwind before I get all crazy with work again.